April 30, 1676 In the Year of Our Lord-Prayers

God, teach me to surrender to your will in this. I cannot see why you should not want me to be free, yet help me to accept whatever happens. I do not know how life with these Natives would be if I were not to be rescued. I am tired and worn out, and have not had a hope to hold onto in quite some time. I know that You promise to be with us and to deliver us from evil, yet it's also hard to trust whatever decision You make. Give my husband wisdom to know what to do; I pray that the funds will come together that I might be redeemed. Be with my children and comfort their souls wherever they might be. Thank you for your love. I love you.